I'm not a robot. =D

2010-05-04T22:53:00.001+08:00

People, do relink alright. :D

http://splashof-neon.blogspot.com/

Are you satisfied?

2010-05-03T22:39:00.001+08:00

Went to the library today. Managed to study some of the history notes I guess? Now taking a break from studying. How I wish I have photogenic memory. :X Good luck for upcoming exams peeps. :D

I am seriously upset. After my last relationship, I gave myself courage, to trust guys for the last time. As friends. And slowly start to trust guys and like guys again. I trusted you, both of you. One as my brother, one as my great great friend. Especially you. You said you weren't thinking straight at the moment. But I didn't expect you to do this. I thought you were different, so different from other guys. I was expecting it from him. I know he will do it. But I wasn't expecting from you. I didn't expect you gang up with some random senior and do this kind of stuff. Not from you. I still can't believe it. I don't have any crush on those 2 guys at all. I didn't want to scroll down, to remember all the bad memories. That's why I didn't delete them. Yet you just... I don't know how to face you anymore. What you did; what both of you did, seriously make me lose respect for guys. It's hard for me to trust guys, again. I'm utterly disappointed. Especially you. I don't know why. But I think it's because I always think you are so different from the others. I was wrong I guess. ):

What if your life revolves around three people instead of one?

2010-05-02T21:25:00.002+08:00

Meeting peeps tomorrow. Sigh. I broke a cup like, 5 mins ago. ): People, I am someone with the worst moral values ever. Why is my life so messed up?

Everywhere I go reminds me of you. Everything I do reminds me of you. ):

Wake up. It's all surreal.

2010-05-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

Okie, I'm just being random. Raeesa came to my house just now. Went out with Nasuha after that. I bought a packet of sweet! Yay! ;D I am like becoming more and more childish lately. I wonder why. :/ I'm easily distracted. Like, seriously.
I guess I freak out a lot lately. A whole LOT. And I'm just.. A little weird lately. ): I myself can't explain why. I don't understand myself anymore. All this, it's just so weird. I've been telling myself a lot of stuff lately. What the hell am I thinking of lately? Stop thinking like that. It won't go that far. I feel so terrible.

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. -Buddha

I'm so sorry god. I can't. ): Help me get over all this. I feel so weird. Help me get away from all this thoughts. Please. D:

This might be the first time that I caught you out

2010-04-30T18:59:00.000+08:00

Nasuha and her invention; soup in a cup. ;D It's niceeeeeeeeee. (:
Anyways, i've been having weird dreams for the past few days. Weird as in, milk speaking to me in basic chinese. -.-" And of course,some other stuff. O:
CL paper today. I wrote crap. ): I'm so gonna flunk my CL. Can i drop mother tongue? Hmm... Maybe not. I must perservere! (:
With 2 papers down, there are like a few more left. Endure Carissa, endure. Just hope you won't get distracted by that again. :/

the scars that won't go away

2010-04-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

I like my hair colour in this photo. LOL. I'm falling sick. ): Runny nose and slight headache. Gosh. Exams in 2 days time and I'm all sick and exhausted. OH. Just now Shaun was talking about Bawang shampoo. And I was like; my mum used to use Bawang shampoo. And Nasuha said:" Really arh? Bawang in malay means onion. LOL. Okay,not funny. Nevermind.

Somehow, I don't think it's the way I act. I tried my best to be myself. And I think you are the one, not me.

_______, are you acting this way on purpose? I don't like it. I'm like... try to tolerate you and your crap. Is it you or am I just too sensitive?

2010-04-27T00:09:00.001+08:00

I left my camera at Nasuha's house and can't blog about today. -.-"
I'm still doing my art.
I left a bad (?) impression on someone today.
I went crazy today, due to PMS.
And something happened.
Life's getting hard. MYE in like, oh-my-gawd, few days time.
I'm so not prepared.
I'm not a robot. LOL.
Whatever Carissa,whatever!
I don't like milk anymore, I like pau instead. Milk Pau. LOL?
I want my cam back. ):
I want you. NOT.
HAHAH. I'm not despo. ;P I ain't going to that state okay.
Anyways, some of the sec ones are cuteeeeeeeee~! :D
Yihui, got cute juniors never tell me. ):
LOL,just kidding. (:
I only like~~~~~~~~ (milk? pau? milk pau? urm... hello?)
Wee~
Shit, PMS is killing me, ahahah. ._.
I'm like driving myself crazy.
Because of you. D: (NOT)
;P

Meteorologist says acid rain e-mail and SMS is a scam

2010-04-22T21:51:00.001+08:00

Yea. Go read it. I'm sure most of you got the sms. Was wondering why my clothes aren't damaged when it came in contact with the rain. So it's fake! Was curious, that's all. ;D
Today was "play with your hair a.k.a center parting day". It is also earth day. LOL.

Our code of conduct. :D

And and, during geo, we had a toilet break. I heard that Mdm Kum walk into the boy's toilet when Sebas was peeing. LOL. And Mdm Kum taught us "Pure Bio" today. And I was telling Ameerul that when we take pure bio, ask Mdm Kum to give us tuition and Mdm Kum smack my back.
Mdm Kum: This shows how dirty you mind is, must wash with detergent!
Carissa: Teacher, cannot blame me, you teach us one.
Mdm Kum: *LOL*

Hahah. :D

2010-04-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

MYE is near. Gosh. So not prepared for it. Carissa, wake up from your dreams. Buck up and stop being obsessed with milk! Milk don't even like you in the 1st place. -.-" Go study! Blog somemore! Tsk tsk.
Okay, I'm insane. ._.

2010-04-17T22:46:00.001+08:00

It was none of my business, I know.
But somehow, what you said really piss me off.
What's the whole point of saying that? I feel like slapping you for god's sake. -.-
I don't want to see your face. Some sort of friend you are. ._.
To think you were so decent. And you look so decent too.
Looks are oh-soooo deceiving.
When I saw that, I straight away went "wtf?!".
I mean, you have the heart to say those kind of stuff about your good friend?
Plus, how old are you already? Still say you want to or don't want to "friend" so and so. ._.
Gawd. It's either you are immature or you are just... Zzz. -.-"

I drive myself crazy

2010-04-17T12:35:00.000+08:00

At the library. Bonding day photos on facebook. (:
If I were to tell you the truth, will you pretend you didn't know anything or will you just accept the fact?

2010-04-13T00:07:00.001+08:00

I'm seriously upset.
You talk behind my back again and again.
I have enough of all this crap you are giving me.
You want it, then tell me. It's just a shirt.
You don't have to go to such an extend.
All this things you did for the past few days. Or weeks.
Can you stop it? Gosh.
You suck. I mean, seriously. From a best friend to what, enemy?
Yes, all of that's the past. But it ain't my fault.
It's your fault as well.

2010-04-11T00:49:00.001+08:00

Somehow, I got a feeling you are not accepting me for who I am.
Some sort of friend you are.
You've changed. ):
When did you become so sensitive?
If you are a true friend, you won't react that way.
You are my close friend. And this is how you treat a good friend of yours? D:
It's all because of you. Would you like it if I did the same thing to you? :/

The best day of my life. LOL. So called. :D

2010-04-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hahah,ain't this cute? :D

Today was great. ^^ I have oratorical contest after school and I got 1st! ;D 2 times in a row lerh! I hope i did e5 proud. O: Well, I was shocked and elated today. Well I hope you won't read this. :/ Damn, I was like elated when you were there. Hahah. Congratulate me somemore. xD Well, although I wasn't the one who freaked out in the library. -.-" But still, like I say, milk gives you wings! ^^ Oh-my-gosh~ I'm so sick. Yeah. What can I do? It's normal kay. I'm jus obsessed. HL milk is cute. :D

Anyways, thanks to 2e5. And cherry for standing up alone. LOL. True friend uhks. ;P

Salad days.

2010-04-03T22:04:00.001+08:00

Lately,there is this webcam porn star that added me on msn. -.-" And I have no idea who she was. Hmmm. So this is how it goes.

Me: Urm, who are you?
Elba________: Hey.
Me: Who are you?
Elba________: Female. 21. You are male right?

That... -.-" And the i click her link in her pm. It lead me to a webcam website. ._. Terrible experience. O:

I'm an April fool! :D

2010-04-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday as fun! :D First aid duty at chinese garden. Pizza hut with Jeffrey,Keith and Melvyn. Training. And "prank call marathon" with Nasuha. :D

At pizza hut, i pranked Sebas with the message peiling sent. And i prank my mum. LOL.

Me: Mummy! I lost my wallet! Got all my membership cards,my ez link and $40 inside! ):

Mum: See larh! -.-

Me: Happy April fool's!

Mum: Walao! ._. *hangs up*

LOL. And i prank call Ridha.

Me: Ridha! You free now? I GOT CAUGHT FOR SHOPLIFTING.

Ridha: OMG.

Me: I stole something and the boss nee you to come down for an explanation as my parents never pick up their phone ): Wait uhks,the shop owner wants to talk to you

Melvyn: Hello. I'm the owner of ____. Are you Carissa's friend?

Ridha: Yea.. What did she do?

Melvyn: Good. She kinda shoplifted. Can you come down to basement 100 and bring $100 to treat me to pizza hut?

Me: Happy april fool's! LOL.

Hahah! Omg. At night,the prank calls were better. I called Nasuha with my house phone and pranked people with my house phone. I will skip a few and post a few here. Hmm... Danish's was the best! :D

Me: Danish! You free? ):

Danish: Kind of. Why?

Me: I got cca just now. Then i came back late. I passed my curfew. My parents don't want to let me go in the house! They don't want to hear my explanation also! ): How?

Danish: Wait uhks I ask my parents!

Me: No! Wait! No! Happy april fool's!

(Me and Nasuha laughing away)

Danish: Walao. This kind of situation still can laugh. My mum say keep saying sorry or else call the police. (he didnt hear the "No!" part. xD )

Me: Omg. Happy april fool larh!

Danish: What? Just tell!

Me: Omg. -.- HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S! *ROFLOL*

Danish: OMG! AHAHAHA! WTH!

LOL right? Hahah! Ameerul and Ely's reaction almost the same. It's just that i told the there is lit supp for 3 hours. LMAO. Hahah. I'm mean. I know. :P Happy belated April Fool's! :D

Happy birthday, Lady Gaga! :D

2010-03-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Gaga! :D Anyways, I had a great day today. ;D Fun and random day. Went out with Ameerul and Nasuha. Vivo~ ^^ Had a random day. Watched diary of a wimpy kid. The main character's brother is kinda hot. ;D Kind of only. But HL milk is better. (: Oh well. I'm waiting for Ameerul to post the pictures. I still have to finish up the speech. So,yea. Posting more stuff some other time. :D

EARTH HOUR~ (:

2010-03-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

It's earth hour baby! ;D My house is in pitch darkness right now. Wahahah~ Look at the person behind you! It's your mum asking you to turn on the lights! LOL. Joking. :D Oh well. Save the Earth. It's dying ya know. ): Everyoe plays a part luhs. So switch off the lights! :B

You grow me like an evergreen

2010-03-27T13:12:00.001+08:00

I realised that I have been posting random stuff lately. Oh well,who cares? ;P
I'm like by fascinated stop motion videos/animation and flipbooks. They are like super cool. O: Take this for example:

Cool huh? xD

you can never have too much Megan Fox. :D

2010-03-25T19:32:00.000+08:00

"Last words are for fools who haven't said enough." -Lady Gaga.

True,true. Speech day tomorrow. :D Hmm... I'm bored. Let's see. I will tell you 3 random facts. :D
1) I hate jerks.
2) I am obsessed with Megan Fox, Lady Gaga and HL MILK. ;D
3) Gosh, I hate jerks! Wait,did i repeat this fact? O:
Oh well,I'm bored. Off to watch anime. Bye. (:

I fell for you, knowing for the fact that you wouldn’t catch me.

2010-03-24T23:25:00.003+08:00

My head is throbbing in pain. I can't really think. I have loads of things to do. I hate all this. I fall and hit my head. The back of my head. Great. I'm like so busy. No one is helping. I cannot take it and that's why I'm venting my stress on this blog. Urgh. I'm pissed at alot of stuff right now. And I'm now having a massive headache.
Whatever. I'm feeling so sick. My head. Urgh. Feel like vomiting. :/
Yes. I admit what you guys say is true kay. But can't you guys respect my decision? I mean like,you guys will freak out. Normal. But,no point spreading it. You guys will come to know someday. That person will come to know someday. What's the point of doing that during recess yesterday? ):

My life isn't that great right now,but doubt me. It will be soon.

2010-03-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

Browsing through some of my photos. Time to share some. :D

LMAO. SORRY JIALE. I CANT HELP IT. :X

See this extra. -.-"

Sorry jiale. Seems that I've captured alot of your unglam moments. :X

Tsk tsk tsk. Yihui arh yihui. What you doing? -.-

Cute drawing drawn by Mrs Ng. :D

Life's like a dick. Sometimes it gets hard for no reason. ._.

2010-03-22T20:32:00.000+08:00

Have you guys heard of rasterbation before? It's cool. YES. RASTERBATE. Not the other one.Well,to rasterbate is to create a picture larger than a piece of paper by printing out the picture in sections sized to a page, then connecting those pages in the proper order. For example; He couldn't buy the poster, so he rasterbated it. It's cool. xD

Wipe your hands,shake it off

2010-03-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

I love their covers! :D The beat it cover very cool kay,show you guys some other time. xD Anyways, I've been wanting to be a geek lately,so i check out what is the in thing between them...

The Commodore 64k! ;D

I heard some stuff about this babe man. O: They say it's better than the macbooks we have now! It use to win apple,IBM and some other well known brands today. Neat huh? :D

Alright,i sound like a total computer otaku,but who cares? LOL. This thing is so freaking cool! LOL.

Let's talk about something else... Hmm.. HBL! March holidays = A week that make you so tired that you don't feel like going to school the following week. Monday = Science remedial ; Tuesday = speech day rehersal ; Wednesday = JEA training ; Thursday - today = HBL at library for the whole day. Well,not for today though. Manage to catch being human with Ben. :D I wanna catch the kidnapper! Hmm,some other times i guess?

Anyone wanna go to the gym? Ajak me kay? I've been putting on alot of weight lately. O: Unhealthy. :/

That's all bah. Nothing much to blog leyy. It's either i forget what i wanna blog on or i'm just too lazy/busy to blog about it. Most likely 1st option. LOL. Okie,whatever. And my new nickname given by Nasuha (that bimbo -.- ) is:

"Baba bitch."

Lame ass. ._.

HL MILK ♥

2010-03-19T01:41:00.002+08:00

Doing HBL right now at this time. Of course,i'm in the mood to blog as.. I found ___'s freaking blog and fb. :D Omg. The photos look so cute lorh! Okie,i sound so... O: Forget it. I'm mad anyway. I'm like hyper and in da mood to do HBL lerh. xD
I'm sorry for just now kay. But i'm seriously pissed. What you were saying just now was pissing me off.

2010-03-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

I REGRET BETTING ON A STUPID NUMBER. NOW I LOST A MAC VALUE MEAL TO A BASTARD. HMPH. DAMN IT.

Greenhouse dancing club? O:

2010-03-16T01:30:00.001+08:00

Speech day rehearsal later in the aftenoon. *Yawns* I need to sleep. But i want to continue watching special a. ): Today was fun. :D Met up with Ridha,Shaun and Khalis for breakfast at mac.
Went to orchard with Sebas,Zihui,Ridha,Jiale,Ameerul and Peiling.. Was planning to go to iluma,but change of plans. O: Lunch at mac again. Went to look for Jiale's HMV ._. while going to random shops. Plan to buy stuff with Ameerul at orchard next week. Formed a new clique with Jiale and Ameerul. High cuts eh. ;)
Met Mrs Ng AT ORCHARD! Can you believe she shop at orchard?! She was using a Prada bag somemore ehh! O: Rich sia. :/

Bus ride back was funny like one hell.. Ahaha. We were crapping and making a nuisance out of ourselves. Bad example. :X Saw koreans. And they thought i was talking to them. LOL! Hard to explain it hear.

Went down the bus and the driver was like scolding us in malay. Something like this:

"Ehhh,no discipline arh dehh!"

Oh well. We just ignored him. xD Who cares? Just joking. :P Kay,i learnt my lesson. Mrs Ng actually shops at orchard. :X

PHI-DOE-FILE

2010-03-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

"You pedophile! D:<"

LOL. Posted this photo found by xiaodi. XD Reminds me of that perv. Hmph. ): This your mum joke is for you,perv.

Don't worry, Your Mom is still a virgin. You were a backdoor baby.

Wakakakakaka. I feel so much better. :D Sebas,read lerh must tag! ;D

Toxic human images are rushing through my mind

2010-03-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

I spent the whole morning at Boon Lay doing service day. Who say it is boring? It is fun. My teammates this year are cute. And Ma'am treat us lunch at pizza hut. All the effort is worth it. ;D
I will just post the photo of the day and post the rest some other time.

Lmao. Hahahah. Alright. That's all larh,too lazy to continue uploading. Bye. :D

2010-03-13T22:05:00.001+08:00

TO GRACE:

SOMETHING INTERESTING.

2010-03-12T21:39:00.001+08:00

Internet back!!!!!!!!! :D Thanks xiao di for reporting to me about blogging. ;DSports day was wonderful i guess? Even though we only won the best banner award. (: Went pizzahut and then bowling with Junwei and gang. Funny shit we had today.xD Uploading pics tomorrow i guess? O:

2010-03-11T13:14:00.001+08:00

Will update soon after i get my internet back.

Why am i reacting this way?

2010-02-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

Hey all. Just a short update of my life. (: Alright,i am back from viewing my new flat. Location will be kept a secret though, i don't want to disappoint you guys. :/ I think you will know what i meant by that already huh. ): I'm moving in on 1st march. But i'm moving my stuff over this sunday,anyone wants to help out? LOL.

2010-02-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

Waiting for the bus~

Kenneth emo sia. :/

Camwhore in the cab~ ;D

Jiale falling asleep in the bus.

While this guys play tap tap. -.-

Steamboat~

Jieying's zen :D

LOL.

Trying out Peiling's hat ;D ; the person behing damn extra. LOL

Don't ask me what i wear. See for yourself.

CNY outing, the photo speaks for itself. Bye. LOL.

What's the colour of the sweet? LOL

2010-02-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

Went to catch this movie today. Friggin funny. Was laughing like,all the way? It was cool. But only if i watch ot with my valentine,which i don't have. ): Oh well,who cares. LOL. CNY was great. Celebrated with friends. Didn't regret it,will blog tomorrow. I'm super tired. I'm sure Ameerul and Kenneth understands my blog title. And Jiale,i'm jealous!! I'm so gonna buy it! You wait! LOL. ><" Percy jackson tomorrow! :D

Into the blue.

2010-02-13T11:46:00.000+08:00

Happy lunar new year eve! I'm just blogging for fun,okie,bye. I was just joking. I will update later. Have to meet Toilet paper and peiling in an hour time.
I am not here to entertain you,oh well,i hate you. You only think for yourself,and not others. I am trying to act like you. Got a taste of your own medicine now? Bitch.

My Tourniquet

2010-02-10T23:12:00.001+08:00

That chain that guy is wearing is cute,but the guy wearing it is not. :X
Valentines day is coming. And i don't have anyone to be my valentine for the day. Aww.. ): LOL. I sound so despo. Well,valentine for tha day as in well,friend to celebrate with. And i can't believe i said yesterday, wow.
Summary of today. Decorate notice board. Skip music lesson. Follow nasuha to clinic. Crapped. Laughed my ass off. And nasuha got 7 or 8 mosquito bites. See,that's why i stomp my food while eating,tsk tsk tsk,nausha,laugh somemore. LOL. :P But pity her larh,her leg like filled with bites. Reminder to self:bring medicine cream for nasuha. Kay,short update.
I thought we would spend valentines day together this year. But i did not expect us to fall apart. But oh well,i'm over you anyways. :P

2010-02-08T23:00:00.001+08:00

Wow. One day of absence in school and half of my own class thinks i'm the one who destroy the class sitting arrangement when i only know about it today? And they think i'm so petty. I'm not really angry with you guys. I'm just upset. And now you guys think i'm the one who erase their faces? Jieying's,Ely's,Rupini's,Peiling's and i don't know who else? They are my friends,you can say good friends. And i'm not pissed with a few of them and i settled my problem with Ely already,why must i still erase their faces? That doesn't make sense. If you guys want to think i did it,go ahead. ): Yes Farah,i'm not a leader. I've changed and 2e5 has changed. I don't recognize myself and i don't recognize you guys anymore. I don't know who i can trust anymore. What if i die? Will you guys even attend my funeral? I guess not huh. No one cares whether i die or not. ):

Karma police

2010-02-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

I'm tired. :/ I suck. LOL. I'm sick of homework. Zzz..Whatever. I just came here to update my blog. Today dizigui,was falling asleep. If not for Peiling,i will just fall off the chair lerh. Maths teacher suck to the core lorh. LOL. She give so many bloody work.
I have enough of 2e5's attitude. We are not as bonded as we used to. ): 2e5,where is our class spirit? You guys are not the same old peeps i knew anymore. Is it because you got a more hot tempered yet laid back and the kind of monitress who jokes around with you guys? Is it because of me? ): Am i seriously a bad example? Can you guys stop all this crap? Please? I don't want to complain about my own class to the year master. :/
I miss 1e5'09. D:

I've tried every remedy

2010-02-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

I'm like that cat. -.- Tired and have loads of homework to do. Zzzz. I have loads of photos to post,but i'm just to lazy. I might even remove my links. I'm too lazy too link people. O: Forget it. See first. Short update,crappy day. Bye. :D

Velvet ropes and guitar

2010-01-31T23:16:00.001+08:00

I somehow realise,how unfair and selfish the world has become. Yes,finally. After years. I finally know how to describe how i feel. In words. I know i myself change. People hate me. If you hate me,stop reading this and go away. Close this window and go visit your fav website.
Empty promises. That's all i get. People keep breaking their promises. I felt hurt. I thought i will just forgive and forget,those whom have hurt me. Broke their promises and whatever bullshit. I will never again. I've learnt never to believe in people and their promises.
I hate liars. That's why i hate myself. I have enough of people lying to me. So i want to stop lying to people. I feel so guilty right now. What goes around comes around,i guess. To us,it may seem like a white lie. But to the particular person himself/herself,it hurts to know the truth.
Everyone i look up to,seems to give up. I want to follow their footsteps,but when they give up,i feel so hopeless. I look up to someone who gives up easily. This happened so many fucking times. What do i do? All i can do is sit somewhere,gaze in mid-air and think about life. Fucking brain i have.
People blame me for nothing. I hate myself when i realise i do that. And i hate people who do that. I I have enough of everything. I'm not jesus. I'm not born to carry everyone's sins on my back. I'm not buddha,i'm not enlighten,hence i can't resolve all faults and resentments. People are blaming me for moment and when i say "Fine,everythingis my fault." I get a slap on my face or i get ignored or reprimanded. Or else,they will say "it's not,why are you saying that? *gives angry look*" Fuck off. Stop blaming me then.
Fuck those who played with my feelings. I'm talking about feelings here. I don't have an iron heart. Treating me like friends a moment and the next,ignoring me,backstabbing me,talking behind my back,lying to me,showing me attitude,as if i'm your enemy. I know i do that. And i've already mentioned. I hate myself for all these.
I don't know why i don't feel like crying anymore. I will usually cry in this kind of situation. I'm a cry baby,i know. I act strong only. I know. But i really don't feel like crying anymore. I want to cry,throw this out of my heart. But i can't. The tears ain't coming out. And i feel so terrible inside. My mum just called me a slut,a monster fyi. She is accusing me of drinking and flirting with guys. She said i rather drop out of school and go be a prostitute. And i felt so pissed after i found out something. And all i can do is type all these here? I know i suck.

Happy birthday,old lady! :D

2010-01-30T01:42:00.003+08:00

Hahah. This girl act cute larh. Farah,Farah~ Stop acting cute and stop slapping me. LOL. Just joking. I am emotionally unstable for now,so sorry for shouting at you or showing you attitude. PMS uhks. Sorry larh babe. 14 years old already. Old sia. :P Whatever,i'm crapping. -.- Anyways,i love you larh act cute girl. Got problems don't keep it to yourself kay. Remember your promise. I don't want to see any scars. LOL. I sound so old. But you're older~ ;P Okie,i better stop crapping and get some sleep. Happy birthday! :D One more thing,i'm not ma'am. So shut up larh,future WO FARAH. xD

Don't be a little bitch with your chit chat

2010-01-24T23:49:00.002+08:00

Everything is my fault,it seems. Everytime,i hurt people. Who have i hurt? I'm not the one who came up with the group,hey themselves join the group. And it's my fault? You guys are all blaming me? I might have hurt her,but you have no fucking rights to talk like that. It's not like you never hurt her before. And the group thing is seriously not my fault. If you want to think that way,she wants to think that way,so be it. Tell her whatever you want. I dont care anymore. I never hate you. I never treat you differently. I'm now trying to do something and i must complete it asap. If you think i treat you differenty,i did not. I don't hate you. So stop all this crap. I already have enough problems with this thing i'm trying to complete. It involves other people and not you? Happy? -.-
Seriously,i need a break. I've been making alot of wrong decisions lately. And i hate myself for all this. I feel sick and guilty. Farah,hate me. Please. I have my reasons. Just don't ask me why.
I've been craving for sweet stuff lately. And my heart ands my lungs felt sharp pain at times. Am i going to die? LOL. But seriously. I feel like i'm going to have a heart attack. God is only helping me at times when i beg till i broke into tears. God,please,i need your help. Ouch. I feel pain. Damn it. God,make me die if you want. I'm know i'm not praying and i'm not serious enough on my vegeterian diet. -.-
I'm crazy. Whatever larh. LOL. Kay,bye.

Crap,motherfucking excuses.

2010-01-21T17:59:00.000+08:00

WTF. I'm now at Jiale's house and blogger draft is working perfectly on his comp! Argh! Blogger draft is not working on my comp. -.- Never mind. Forget about it.
I want to hear Jiale sing. I want to put a poll on class blog. See how manny per cent of 2e5 want to hear Jiale sing. LOL. Hahah,Jiale,don't kill me! :P

oedipus,the original motherfucker

2010-01-20T20:09:00.003+08:00

I'm seriously confused,i treat all my friends the same way. They are all the same,no rank given to everyone of them. Why use B's name? I don't get it. Just tell me she thinks i hate her. That's enough. I know you are angry. It's just food. And friends. What's wrong? Since YOU came up to ME,and tell me to trust you,i told you what happen. You said you need to speak to me. And now you are trying to say I am treating you like a plaster? -.-" I love her,i love everyone? I didn't know B was upset. I didn't know she think that way. And now you are trying to tell me to treat you and B better and leave A alone,put her below and place you and B 1st in my heart? Sorry,i can't. I REPEAT. I don't rank people in my heart. Everyone is equal. What did i do? I talk to A,because she is upset. You want to lose her? I thought you LOVE HER. Don't tell me i didn't care when you guys are upset. I CAN'T SATISFY EVERYONE. GET IT? I can't talk to everyone of my friends when all of them are upset,damn it.

I'm sick and tired of everyone's attitude.

Animals from the future

2010-01-17T16:34:00.005+08:00

LOL.

I slept for 15 hours. -.- Yesterday night,reach home at about 11+. And after i wash up,it was 12. And i slept till 3.30 today. Wow. LOL. Okie,let's talk about yesterday~
Mdm Chung treat me,amalina,jeffrey,benjamin,wira and fuad to pasta mania and breeks yesterday. The food uhks... Sedap~ LOL. She have her reason for treating us kay. Anyways,yeah. The food was ze best. Lols.
Alright,back to today. I saw this beautiful picture of the ocean,and i suddenly wondered...
Why is the sea salty? And i got the answer...

I know.. Wtf right? I'm not going to the beach anymore. -.-

Lately,i have been addicted to pokemon. I have been downloading Pokemon gba and gbc games from all the way back to the 1990s.. And i haven been playing them on my comp. Am i a Otaku or what?

The screenshot from pokemon silver. I know i am hopeless. :D

2010-01-12T22:00:00.001+08:00

I look damn emo in this picture. Must be peiling's nails and my expression. LOL.

LOL. School was terrible today. 1st half of school before recess was terrible. I was struggling with that thing inside. 3 of us were fighting. Until i shouted at them? I said i had enough and i came back to my senses. I'm afraid we or pratically,them,will quarrel forever. The one who is weak took over for a moment and went back in. The angry one didn't came out. Which was great. I kept it under control. (: Well,i need more time to control the weak one. To prevent myself from breaking down. Those who don't understand what i meant,don't ask what. It will freak you out. Hahah.
Somehow,all these fight and quarrels drain alot of my energy. I feel damn tired. I can't hear that today. I can't sense who is coming as well. Okie,it's not ghosts i'm talking about. It's something else i'm talking about. :D

2010-01-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

Blogger in draft is pissing me off. And i'm back to using the normal blogger. I'm now pissed with so many stuff. I seriously have enough. All these ups and downs. I have enough. I was somehow pissed at alot of thing today. I'M HELPING PEOPLE AND PEOPLE AINT MOTHERFUCKING HELPING ME. The ihatecarissa,i know i'm a bloody fucker. But get a life for the sake of your parents. Oops. I think you don't even have PARENTS. Aint i right? Bitch,i am a motherfucker. And you are worse. :D

I have enough. This thing is killing me. I WANT TO TRANSFER ASAP.

Hey,i seriously don't know what to say. I try to be there for every of my friends. I don't like to see people get upset. I feel guilty. For what you did made me feel like an innnoncent third party. I treat you like my elder brother all this while. I don't want to get emotionally hurt again. I want to study hard and i'm aiming for the next GCE O Levels top candidate. I don't want myself to get into a relationship for now. Unless,you can prove that you won't hurt me. I can accept,but will this affect my life and my studies? Time is crucial. Give me time to think about it. I will perhaps reconsider. For now,i really need to think about it. Give me some time alright?

2010-01-10T01:38:00.003+08:00

Click the image if your browser allows you too. Look at the facebook name. LMAO.
Yeah. I went for scholarship and didn't go for cca day. I think they had lots of fun. I'm sure they did. And my arm hurts. Typing all this hurts. -.- I guess i miss out all the fun. I guess that day is near. I will have to pretend that i don't know anything? I just hope it isn't me. Because i seriously don't know what to do. Argh. But some people said it's me. And i know it's me. Because i got a feeling~ Woohoo~ Kay,lame. Scholarship = boring. I guess i miss all the fun. Even the trip to the furnace last year. Why must everything clash? D: And the week we are having our CA1 will most likely be the week i'm moving. I don't want to move. I'm praying hard that my mum won't transfer me to a girl's school. I hope my arm is alright even though it hurts like shit. I'm crapping. Alot. Nevermind. Bye.

2010-01-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

For once,my life is like a burning page. -.- It sucks and i have no goals in life. I do have goals. But for once,i feel that it's impossible for me to achieve them. And it's the 1st time i feel this way. Well,i don't care about what people think about me anymore. I will just try to change for the better and that's that.
For once,i will just have a short post and stfu(me).

Chill.

2009-12-30T22:04:00.001+08:00

I was checking my inbox today,and i receive 2 junk mails. And guess what is it about?

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promotion

VIAGRA

PENIS

ENLARGER.

Walao. I have no dick what. -.- How did they get my email add in the 1st place?! -.-" I know,times are bad,but.... Jeez. I'm not the one who is looking for this kind of stuff. They even show the picture of the pre and post effect on the dick! I'm seriously gonna try calling the hotline given and play a prank. ;)

He ate my heart.

2009-12-27T01:03:00.000+08:00

Aww~ Cute nyer~ :D

Hellos. :D Later 9+ going out with cousin. Hahah. Movie then lunch? Idk. Up to him. Anyways,i want to update my blog larh. LOL. Currently packing my study room. I still need to use it for next year. I will only be moving around feb or march. Sian lorh. Zzzzzzz. Tired to the core manzxc. I'm now addicted to so many songs. And my MEGAN FOX. LOL. Okie,better stop ranting. Blog tomorrow? Bye. :D

Light me up,put me on top~

2009-12-25T12:02:00.000+08:00

~~Mary~~ Merry Christmas! :D

Hohoho! Hellos people. :D Merry christmas. How i wish it snows in SG. But never mind. At least we can save money clothes and firewood and stuff for winter,right? Updated class blog yesterday. Homework is stated there. For more info,refer to your own homework. LOL. One more week till school opens. And yay! Peiling is coming to SG today. (: Will post more later? Depends alright. Bye. Have a happy festive season! Merry christmas! And a happy new year~ LOL. ^^

What can you see?

2009-12-23T13:24:00.000+08:00

Hellos. :D Just came back from school. There quite a number of fuhua primary students that came to our school. ^^ And of course,i saw mats,minahs,ah bengs,ah lians. But they are quite okay. ;D Got quite a number of chiobus leyy! :D Boys can look forward to next year's sec 1s. Hahah. Fun larh,today. Help out with uniform,escort? LOL. Okie,short update,bye. :D

Up,up and away!

2009-12-19T23:01:00.000+08:00

Went to Bugis with Nasuha just now. Last min then decide to go to Bugis. LOL. Bought new pumps. :D And we spent the whole day walking around Bugis street just for a dress for tomorrow's concert formal wear. -.-" Nasuha can't make up her mind on certain stuff after all. We even walk to Bugis junction then to raffles hospital and then to arab street,back to raffles just to get something to eat. Pathetic nyer. And at iluma,someone from otaku house cosplay as Kakashi in kakashi gaiden! OMG!!!!!!!!!! I didn't take photo with him/her. T-T Nasuha said it was a girl who cosplay as Kakashi. O: But,who cares? Kakashi rocks. :D Hahah.

2009-12-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

Someone ask me about my ambition today. I gave it a deep thought when i reached home. Everytime,i will just say actress. I never reconsider. Well,until today. And i finally realize what i want to be. :D

I love drama. I will never give up on it. But i don't have any potential to get into an arts school because yuhua sec don't have a drama club. Nor do yuhua have debate. -.- Wait,that's it. Debate. I want to be a lawyer too. I want to bring people justice. :D I want to make the world a better place. I dare to dream big.

Actress,i like to act. Drama is the only thing i really can engage myself with. I love acting. Everyone of my friend knows that. But acting was also the thing that made me get personality disorders. I absorb that fact. And singapore's development in acting.... Hopeless. :X So acting will be a leisure or as said,hobby. :D

So,lawyer. As i said,i want to bring people justice. Debating,another skill i gain from acting. Basically,one of the skills. I want to be a lawyer. I want to be someone,who proves people wrong. To stand out from the crowd,to help people. (: This is what i want to be. Sounds funny? Well,at least i dare to dream big. I have amibitions,and i'm proud of it. I am who i am. I want to see things form different perspectives from now on. And trust me,i will try my best to achieve what i aim for. Yes,i'm weird. :D

My toxic valentine

2009-12-16T17:50:00.000+08:00

BOOHBAH~!

I'm like too lazy to update my blog. Well,i have to make an effort to update it. I don't want it to die. LOL. Alright. Zing zing zing bah! Zing bah! LOLOLOL. Okie,i'm mad. I'm crazy. I have decided not to get upset anymore. I have enough. So let's get hyper~ Woohoo~

Cute right,both or them? I suggest you guys dont be kpo and click to see our convo. :D Currently changing my playlist. Hmm.. I don't have anything else to blog about. Oh,one more thing.

To that fake Carissa on wanni's blog,get a freaking life please. (: Friend spell as fried. LMAO. My standard in english is so much better than yours. Plus,how old are you already? Still i friend you,you don't friend me. LOL. Are you a retarded spammer? If you are,say kay. I help you get into grace orchard and i buy you uniform. :D I know i'm very kind. How kind of you too! Help me tag wanni's blog. :D Thank you! But,don't use it without permission,copyrighted ya know. Your mama copyrighted it! Yep,call me mama ya bitchy spammer. :DD

I'm now facing everything in a positive light. Cool huh. Call me yo mama before you want me to entertain you. ;P No,must be like lady gaga's song:

"Dont call me mama(or mummy,i forget),call me kitty~"

LOL. I found my shuffle! Yay! Like finally. :D I look for it for ages! But i'm planning to buy a nano or touch. Depends. Will update soon? Okie.

2009-12-12T22:03:00.001+08:00

People,remember i said i forget the week i watch new moon and had trainings? I still can't really recall. I remember watching new moon. Jesslyn went off. After i don't know what happen,i went back home. This is the only thing i can recall. And now i forget what happen after i went back home from sentosa. Was i online? I don't remember tagging anyone. Shit. My chat log said i like kissing girls or something like that. What happen? I dont have feelings when i kiss people. And it's not my 1st time kissing a girl. But i didnt mention i like it. But my plurk,my chat log.. Wtf? Okie. I want to make stuff clear. I ain't under medication. I know you guys don't believe i have personality disorder. But if i dont have disorders,why cant i remember a thing? Am i too stressed or what?

Alright. I love italian guys. HOT GUYS ONLY. THEY ARE FREAKING HOT. And i just realised that because today went to....

PASTA FRESCA DA SALVATORE FACTORY AND OUTLET! :DD

Wakakaka! Be jealous. One of the chefs is HOT. He is a typical italian guy. And he is hot. But i don't like him. Like as in love. I dont really go for love at first sight. I dont have a crush. ((: Anyways,we ate alot! It's amazing,hot chefs,good environment to dine in and of course, DELICIOUS FOOD. TIRAMISU,ICECREAM,PASTA AND PIZZA. Sedap. Pizza better than pizza hut. Pasta slightly better than Pasta mania,ice cream is made on their own. Got the look of swensens ice cream,standard higher abit can fight with swensens already. :D

Before i blog about Sentosa. I want to make it clear. I OFFICIALLY RESIST THE TEMPTATION TO SMOKE! YES! It took me long enough to quit. So what if i use to smoke? I will prove to you guys i can quit! So what if i ALMOST lose it? I didnt really have sex. I already said almost. And i never hang out with bad company anymore. So what if i any-oh-how kiss people? I already regret it,as in,i made people freak out because of me. I am changing. I just dont get it. People on oter countries kiss each other because they are friends. Why cant we? I dont kiss people with feelings. Plus,i have enough of it. So what if i have mental disorder? So what if i use to smoke? So what if i did this and that? I am changing. Peeps,can you please accept these facts? I regret doing alot of things. I'm really trying my best. I'm really sorry i made you guys worry about me unable to resist the temptation of smoking. But i did in the end. I just think,i'm changing for you guys. As friends,can you guys accept the fact,i'm changing and get over my past? It's for my own sake. And it's for you guys too.

Sentosa was great. Swim the whole day. Did crazy stuff. But the best part was near the end of the day.Was floating with jeremy. Well,he was walking and i was flotating that part. :D His back is so comfy~ (: Wait till his camp ends,i want to ajak him go sentosa,i want to float on his back again. Hahah. I love jeremy grandpa<3 . :D

Alright,guys,i'm a volunteer at the relics exhibition held at suntec from 30/12 to 3/1. Who wants to join me? I have alot of posters i have to put up. I need help. Contact me if you guys want.Msn or text. ;) Bye.

Farah,i'm sorry.
Hana,i hate pickles too. :/

Deliver us from evil.

2009-12-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

Life ain't fair. Not only mine. Some others to,but as i say,life is a pickle jar. (winks to hana) Hahah. Okie,today's training,can do better. But my knee was in pain and i was sneezing at random moments. Okay,must train more to improve. Alright. Tired larh. Have to study tomorrow. ALONE. I'm a loner. So,bye.

A,
It's killing me. I'm a bitch. I'm sure you know that. My attitude sucks. I suck. You admitted that too. Everyone have feelings. I am not worthy of a friend i think? I don't like your crush. LOOK. I have a crush. But it's not him. Alright. If i'm not a good friend,just tell me.

B,
Cheer up. I'm sorry.

C,
I don't like what's happening. Can we even talk face to face? Please. Is it that hard? It took awhile to get myself over you. And you can still talk about crap related to me? I assume i heard what you say is clearly about crap. Related to me. Get a life. I maybe a bitch. A slut. But i will never,ever,be a jerk,like you. Think before you talk and insult people. And cant we even say hi? I still have feelings,for you. Not that much,just aliitle. And i'm not acting. I have borderline disorder kay? And i dont like it.

D & E & whoever else,
Look,enough of this teasing,please. I'm already very stressed out. I can hardly take jokes nowadays. Because of a particular incident. I hope you guys understand. Separate work from personal stuff please. It seems funny to you guys,but it's hard for me. Well,maybe,us. I'm sure you people are matured enough to get what i mean?

I'm drowning in the river of the nile.

2009-12-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

When will i get to see the light at the end of this tunnel? It's so dark in here. I don't see any point,in me living this way. Nor do i see think living another way will help. People just seem to hate me. I'm in a lifeless mood right now.

Jinx.

2009-12-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

Had training today. Train in the rain. :D Learn a few more commands. Yesterday polish my boots like... Worth it larh kay. Rain rain~ Wet wet wet and more wet. But i didn't take part in the wet session activities due to my knee. I just walk about in the open area/non-sheltered areas. So i'm not as wet as the others. Stayed after cca. The NCDCC room key was broke into 2. Had a 'fun' time trying to take the broken key out from the lock. Buying my school uniform tomorrow. Alright,goodnight. Tired already. :/

~~Somehow,i feel like i'm a jinx. I'm a burden to people and i bring people bad luck.~~

Somebody get me through this nightmare.

2009-12-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

Ain't she hot? Megan fox <3

Tiring day today. Yet quite fun. Lose my voice and my knee hurts. Now drinking honey+lemon drink. Best arh. xD Miss Faith told me before that this is the best for our throat. :D CCA was quite tiring,i guess? And there is fun session on friday. Will work hard to polish those boots. (:
Eh,and Megan Fox is mine okay? LOL.

I don't get you. So what if i need a shrink? It ain't funny. 6 years. You dare to say that. I'm not the one who replied 10 inches. Find out the truth 1st before getting pissed. Yea,my attitude sucks. I suck. You can tell me straight in my face. So what if i went out with them? Are you thinking that i'm an attention seeker? Oh are you thinking i love him? That time it rained. I thought that bus stop is nearer. I admit,my fault. And if you assume that i stayed at the shelter to spend more time with him,you're wrong. I don't want myself to get wet. I don't want to walk into IMM like some wet kid that was drenched. What's wrong with that? What's wrong with going out with 2 male friends? KNOW THE TRUTH BEFORE TELLING OTHERS STUFF BEHIND MY BACK. And if you want to, just write my name on your post. It is insulting. What if i said,hah,you can't eat pork,in your face! Will you like that? I'm sure you will feel insulted. So what? What's wrong with me,having to see a shrink? Say everything straight in my face. Because it hurts to get insulted on something you can't even control.

So what if i'm a freaking fucked up Bi (or not) ?

2009-11-27T00:23:00.006+08:00

Lady gaga. (:

Oh god. Alison lost ANTM. D: Damn siol. LOL. Went out with Joellen chee bong bong. Hahah. Fun larh kay. Spicy portobello pasta<3 Hahah. Photos will be posted asap. :D

I gave up hope on everything. It just sucks. When you have a mental disorder like me,yes, i have a freaking mental disorder. Now you guys know,you can fucking choose whether you want to ignore me like some people or choose to ignore my mental disorder. I'm already fucked up. If you want to hate me go ahead. If you guys want to ignore me because i have bipolar and borderline personality disorder ,so be it. I gave up hope on you people anyways. I can't get myself to trust people anymore. I gave up hope in every single thing. I hope you guys understand, you are dealing with a freak,someone mentally insane. Alright peeps,i have made myself clear. I don't mind not having friends. You guys either hate me or love me. (: Get that in your head.

“I don’t understand why people don’t have a fucking sense of humor. Always assume that I’m being sarcastic.” - Megan Fox.

I thought it will be better this way.

2009-11-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

I love you larh. <3

Farah,you're not a bitch larh. If you're i'm a whore kay. No one hates you. (:

People,i'm not a lesbian. -.- I like MEGAN FOX. LOL. Joking.

LOL. Kay larh,update already. Bye.

happy birthday to me~ :D

2009-11-22T23:49:00.004+08:00

Hi peeps! Thanks for the birthday wishes! Had a great day with my family today. :D Haha. I heart die the following people who wish me kay. In whatever way. Tag,facebook,msn,sms and especially RIDHA. With her cute video call. :D Kay,before the names,pictures please. (:

LOLS. Ben and jeff too. :D Kay,thanks to all those who bother to sms and tag and well,wish me.

Ridha Kartina Benjamin Jeffery Jesslyn Jeevan Sinhui Simin Jieqi
Farah Keith Michelle Huiwen Wendy Jieying Siukgeok Siewying Jiale
Laila Phyo Raymond Famidha Jiali Vennice Chelsea Zhijun Zihui Sirong
Hmm.. who else? Oh yes,qing hui. And,urm.. Ah! Aisha! And the rest. I forget who already. But thanks. Love die you guys kay!

Cute right? ;D

Alright. Thanks peeps! Haha. Quick update. Bye! (:

We are like a pen without ink.

2009-11-21T23:54:00.001+08:00

Hi guys. I'm turning 13 in a few mins time. My last post as a 12 year old kid. :D I will be more mature from now onwards. Thanks guys. ;)
Bye.
I will miss my childhood days. (:

I never thought we would fall out of place.

2009-11-20T21:27:00.001+08:00

Looking back, I realised how childish i am. Hahah,spending the last 2 days of my childhood. 13, here i come. :D Lots of things going on lately and it really help me 'grow up'. Hahah. Why whine over something which cannot be mended? Well,i DON'T think it can be mended. Perhaps mended is not the word to use here. But my range of vocab is limited. I don't know big big words kay. Unlike some vain and bombastic people. ;X Alright,enough of my rantings. Let's talk about some random stuff. (:

Don't add this person. -.- He is weird. He ask me if i bath already. LMFAO. (Not in the convo above)

LOL. Random larh. Did this just now with Ridha at the library,the facebook trick. ;)

Okay,i seem pretty childish above. ;P Whatever. Well,at least,i know how to think in terms of some situations. 'Situations'. xP Kay larh,end of post. ;D There's 1st aid duty tomorrow,yay!
P.S. I'm crazy over Lady Gaga. ;)

I never thought it would come to this. I wish that we could go back to where we were before, but i don't think that i love you anymore. You've changed your attitude towards me. It's too hard to keep pretending, it's too hard to ignore.

Some source of redemption,some offering of pension.

2009-11-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hi guys. Went out today and found out that there are extra sharp cheese and shaved cheese. LOLS. So,Nasuha and i conclude that money and cheese have hair kay. Haha. ;D Coz they can be shaved. And money is shaved by percentage. xD Okay,crap. Camp was fun,overall. Thanks to Ben for accompany-ing me to Mac for the doublecheese burger without MEAT. And i wait for your sms for so long liao leh. D: Walao. Make me wait for so long. -.-"

We are still together. But somehow, my feelings for you is fading away. I'm afraid that it may develop for someone else. I really am afraid that will happen. I got a feeling, it will develop for someone, soon.

You are ignoring me. I don't know why. Did i do something wrong again? Or did something else happen? Is our relationship a pain in the neck for you?

Yes, i'm still pissed off with you. But it hurts to see you ignoring me for no reason. I'm sorry. For everything i did. Why can't you apologise? For telling them those things. It was meant to be a secret, between you and me. I know, it doesn't seem like one. But i have my pride, just like you.

Hey, i find our relationship very amusing. We can last so long. Months. Without ILYs, holding hands, contacting each other. Wow. We can still last. When was the last time, we really act like couple? I forget when. Funny. Real funny. Real strange.

Frozen by the past,petrified by the present,paranoid of the future. What should i do?

2009-11-11T02:16:00.001+08:00

That guy in the picture. I miss him. Grandpa,come back soon! O:

Yay! Got a new lappy. :D I miss Jeremy larh. Grandpa! Must tag when you come to my blog! LOLS. I don't want to post so much. Bye people. :D

2009-11-04T17:58:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps. At library with Ridha. Hankypaper always make my day. <3
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost. I wasn't acting. And it just hurts. Stop acting? Why do you think i'm acting in the 1st place? I'm not. And i'm just experiencing pms. Is there something wrong with being upset because of pms? Do i look like i'm acting just because i'm hyper active and i suddenly get upset? Can't i get upset? "Don't bother about her,she is in her own drama." I spend hours crying just because of that single sentence. Am i acting? Do i really seem like i'm acting to you? Do i seem like i'm emotionless and i have to act upset? Why why why? I feel like scoffing, But it won't work out stuff. Go and boot lick your "wife" and backstab more.
To people who saw the deleted post,please ignore it,thanks.

Trust,emotions,assumptions,the worst i have
experienced.

2009-10-29T17:20:00.001+08:00

Okie,i know you will not be able to read this bcoz you won't bother to come to my blog. Come on sucker. I said that on purpose right. You know what is called jealousy? -.- My tears are not for everyone okay. Hmph.

2009-10-24T19:43:00.002+08:00

Hey hunks and babes! Please take note;i will be MIA-ing as my computer contracted virus and stuff and i cant use it. D: Do continue to tag alright. Thanks. :D

2009-10-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

Wow,life sucks when there are blutos and bitches in your life. -.- Especially Blutos/Bitches/Bastards like Jessica. Talking about her,pfft. -_-" She made me real pissed dude. Stupid ass. Bitch larh you.
I'm gaga over that guy larh. xD He is so shuai can. He looks so much like baizhanji. ;D Nope,not lady gaga. :P
You suck hardcore,bluto.

2009-10-13T16:52:00.002+08:00

Yihui,nice picture siol. xD I LIKE IT LARH. LOL. Cool luhs. :B

2009-10-10T10:11:00.002+08:00

hate ulcers. LOL. I guess most likely this will be my update for today,early in the morning. I have nothing to blog about eh. Hmm... I know! NCDCC service day photos. :D

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Haircut for Kartina. The rockstar hairstyle. :)

The picture speaks for itself. Will upload more photos next time. I'm just too lazy for now.

I have enough of my life. Faking a smile ain't that easy.

2009-10-09T22:11:00.000+08:00

Nice! :D

Plates of eaten sushi~

"Want fight arh?!"

O-O"

The human monkey. xD

WanNi siao derh,stand there for nothing. :P

WanNi look so elastic! LMAO.

Molesting eahc other,-.-

Sinhui,where are you looking at?! Haha.

Sinhui touching herself. LOL.

WanNi "raping" sinhui. LMFAO.

Okie,let the photos do the talking. *yawns*

No handlebars.

2009-10-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birthday larh,Bangxiong. :D
Today was bleh. But it was fun during school hours. Especially science. ~~Horny King~~ Mr Tan was super funny. Today's science lesson on recap of sexual reproduction. Mr Tan was describing what sexual intercourse is like. LOL. He pronounce penis as PEN-NIS. Then i say:"Mr Tan,is penis or PEN-NIS?" Then he snap at me. "Don't interrupt when the teacher is teaching!" LOL. Cute sia. And then he say that the men can't control the sperm and it will shoot into the ~~vajayjay~~ va**** like volcano eruption. -.- Wow. The he say better don't wear condom cause not shiok. And say the man get excited and the penis will be ~~erect~~ straight. -.- And then the female get excited then the vajayjay (Farah,*winks winks*.) become wet. If not very pain. WTF? LOL. Got alot more. But i dn't want my blog to be a sexual education site. -.- Highlighted words are EMPHASIZED BY HIM.
LOL. Pardon me. It was the Naughty G i drank just now that make me so... LOL. Michelle and i tried it today, 2 flavours. I tried original while Michelle tried Green tea. And we gave Danish the money and called him to buy it. LMAO. 2 cans leyy. Then the 7-11 person was like:"urm,sure anot?" LOL. Haha! It was quite nice. Trying Green tea flavour tomorrow. And Danish said that he will accompany m to buy it. It's nice! :D It makes me alittle hyper though. TTYL! x)

The rhythm of my life pounds.

2009-10-05T21:14:00.000+08:00

I meet my fate with resignation.

My knee start to hurt real bad. Damn. But i still can practice volleyball~ For the sake of my beach volleyball~ T-T Must ren! Hmph! Another short update alright? :B

Where the sun hits.

2009-10-04T23:14:00.001+08:00

Indulge in reminiscence.

Hey peeps. :D I'm too lazy to upload pictures of yesterday uhks. :X Will upload IF i have the mood. :P I've completely no mood to blog. So bye guys.
I feel so pathetic. Hoping you will talk to me. Hoping you will send me a single message. Everytime you're online,i will just stare at your name,hoping another windows live messenger window will pop out. Hoping you are the one who start the conversation. Just when i promise myself not to think of you. To forget you,to hate you. How pathetic can i get? It's only 2 days. And it seem like a week. No,a month. Or perhaps a year. Have i really turn so desperate? I was really hoping to see your reaction. When i say i'm a bitch,i'm a slut,i'm a whore. Your reaction when i cry. I was expecting too much. Ain't i? Someone,please,tell me what i should do. Do i really have to give up to make you notice me? Or is it because we are mia? Do i really have to give up? Were you just playing along? All this while? To you,it may mean nothing. But to me,3 words already meant alot. I just don't know what to do.

The sun,the stars and the moon.

2009-10-01T20:58:00.001+08:00

Hi guys. I won't be blogging much. EYE is already here. In fact, tomorrow. How fast is that? WOW. My mum still want to transfer me. Okay. One last thing.

Good luck for EYE!!!!! :DDD

I will forget you. How i hate you,how i love you,how i like you. I've got lots of blows from you. I will settle what i need to after EYE. For now,you're just someone extra in my life and all i have to do is ignore you.

Thanks alot, Farah . :) Chicken say goodbye. *do hand sign* LOL. xP

Be more decisive.

2009-09-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

I'm obsessed with you.

100th post!!!!!!!!!! Wee~~~~ :D Went to Ely's house just now. Ate,study,practice vb. I'm practising hard. For the sake of beach volleyball and sentosa. LOL. Just joking. In case if my mum really transfer me to Cedar girls. D: Damn. Nevermind. I finally can set!!!! T.T <-- touched. Like after 2 weeks of intense practising! T.T I'm so going to Sentosa after EYE. Train my serve and spike. :B At least i will be prepared for Cedar. BWAHAHAHAH~ Hope i won't become a lesbo. O:
Alright,off to study now. Bye guys! :D

Red,blue,yellow green.

2009-09-28T21:01:00.001+08:00

Seoul garden! Here i come tomorrow! I can't eat though. D: But never mind. :) I get to see others eat. EYE coming huh? Busy bees all aorund~ LOL. I'm super high today. I don't know why,don't ask me. Bye. LOL.
Happy 2nd month. Thanks for the kube,enjoyable moments and happiness ( you never put copyright horh, :P ). ILY.
I still hate Jessica though. xP

shattered dreams. broken illusions. innercity decadence.

2009-09-23T22:29:00.002+08:00

I plaster a plastic smile upon my lips. And know, for me, this is reality.

McChicken without chicken. :D The thing i always eat at mac. Ate that just now. With cheese~ Yum. ;P Went to science with Jiale,Kartina,Ridha,Ameerul and Jeremy. Photos are not with me. Loads of photos man.
Today lesson very slack uhks. Claymation all the way. Well,almost. And Mr Wilson gave me till next week for the ms producer! Yay! xD
Argh. I haven't touch my eng compo. I don't feel like doing it. Must do planning somemore. -.- Nothig much to blog about right? Hmm.. Let's talk about... My birthday? Nah. I hate my birthday. Cause I'm a loner. I hardly buy people birthday gifts. I'm broke. Never mind. I'm a boring loner. So i won't talk much.

Sucker! Look here! -->You don't know how i feel. My attitude,the way i acted,it wasn't enough for you to realise there's something wrong? You need me to wrte your name here? Guess you don't even knw i'm talking about you huh? Nevermind. I hate you. You fucking perv. -.- Sucker. Because of you,and some bitches,life kinda suck.

Oh yea,one more thing...

Jeremy Grandpa rocks!!! <3

(So does Jieying toilet paper. ;D )

Happy now,Jieying? -.-"
Oh,and let me show off. I had a handshake with Jeremy which last for 9 mins. Hah! I'm his number one fan dude! =] My socks are now rocking because of him! ;P

I make coke with apples.

2009-09-20T23:57:00.001+08:00

Fuck off sucker. Give me more crap. Give me more of your fucking attitude. Give me more of your effing excuses. Give me more of your mother fucking lies. Sucker,you think i really care much about all this crap you give me? Damn you,sucker. Gay,lesbo-nish,liar,ass,or whatever. I can just use every single vulgar to describing you. So what? I cuss alot,i must admit. You motherfucking monkey cunt. Happy? Fuck. I'm pissed off. Why do you have to fucking appear in my life? Sucker! I thought i can lead life happily. But i live in "fear" and "agony". Bluek. So not true yet so true. Argh. You suck,sucker. I hate you. You suck. I don't want to fucking see you,yet i can't. Wapiang eh,kns,you make me so depress. Eff larh. Walao. Argh. You suck people's balls larh,fucking gay/lesbo nipple cream. You won't be reading this anyway,so let me cuss all i want to. You know how much it hurts. It hurt,more than that cut on my face. EMOTIONAL PAIN. Get it? The fear of losing you. Fuck. You think i scold people like that? NO. I scold people like that when they really get me pissed off. Like that banana orange in our school. Wait,you suck more than her. Damn,why didn't i do it in the 1st place? I should have asked. And i won't be living in agony. Damn,i got myself into this shit. And why i type all this crap? One effing reason. I'm confused. And the reason,it all started from you. Know your effing fault now? Don't know? Scram larh. I hate you. You suck. Happy? PFFT. YOU FUCKING MAKE ME SAY THIS. GAY/LESBO SUCKER.
The above does not concern you people. It's for that effing sucker. And most likely,that sucker won't be reading this anyway. Cause that sucker just suck. That's why suckers are called suckers.

Sour sugarcane.

2009-09-19T21:46:00.006+08:00

Ignore my title. -.- I type it just for fun. Went to buy some stuff with Michelle today. :D And i kena threaten alot of times. ._. And there's like,nothing to do. Watching Sheneneh. ;) Lmao, My name is keylolo! ROFL.
Yea,life sucks. I suck. -.- Damn it. I feel like banging my head against the wall. Cause you suck hard core. I hate you to the effing max. I agree i suck. BUT YOU SUCK EVEN MORE. SUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-17T21:56:00.001+08:00

Anyone knows the youtuber mytoescold? He is so cool can! xD He sounds like Ammerul's sorethroat voice. Which... makes him cute! xD Especially the video below. He is funny,dude. x)

Cute right? He's kinda hot. Admit it guys. Well,serious. Hot in a strange way. & he really is cute. ;D OMG. I'm crazy. I saw bai zhan ji today! x) Okay,short update,bye,people of the world! :B

Chubby bunny! :D

2009-09-16T22:17:00.000+08:00

Orchard Ion was big man, went there yesterday with Elyemelia,Jiale and Ameerul. Grandpa left us as he has to go to his cousin's birthday party thing. LOL. He is so cute sia. Return me my umd and memory stick must wrap and write letter. I will snap some photos and show you some other time. I was slashed today. Cool sia. On my face. Next time,people,don't play with penknife. Don't slash yourself. Don't go emo,people. :) Apologies to F . A lesson learnt. And and,thanks Kartina,Grandpa and Ridha. Ridha's advice is very... cool. :B Thanks alot! Sorry for being so troublesome. D:

Seperate lifes,seperate ways.

2009-09-14T19:52:00.001+08:00

A request to update from Kartina. :X Ridha and Ameerul! Send me the pictures taken on the day we went to pizza hut!!!!!! O: I have nothing to update about uhks. Oh,one more thing.

Happy birthday,Jieying Toilet paper! :D
(eeyer,you old liao. :P )
(And choose leyy,mr bump,stich or kube? -.- )

Thats all. TTYL! XD

Out of time.

2009-09-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

Update update update! Okie,lame. Will update tomorrow. Lazy uhks. :P

090909

2009-09-09T22:36:00.001+08:00

Yeah.A problem resolved. And here comes another. Practice vb makes me forget problems. With pain... Of course luhs. And fun. :D Thanks alot guys,for your concern. I finally can cry lerh. Yea. As in,cry naturally? Nevermind,i'm used to all this kind of stuff. I can endure. At most,i cry for the whole day. & night. :) No big deal.
Crying 2 times a day is just not enough. My heart still hurts. Alot. All i can do,is too endure. I'm used to it anyway.

2009-09-09T00:46:00.001+08:00

I broke down into tears straight away after i recall what had happened. I was taken aback by what i have done. I feel like an idiot. It's like when you want to bang your head against the wall but you don't want to get injured. Will i forget all this pain after some rest?

O3O

2009-09-07T19:29:00.001+08:00

Hey guys. :D I'm alittle back to normal now. Thanks alot Ridha! Without her,i will still be emo for now. O: I'm still a little upset though. Over 2 things. Anyways. Ridha and i are the " O3O " crew. :B Look at our msn display name and you will know. xD Goodbye guys. Short update.
~~When it's time to end it,i will. I see no point for us to continue this. I try not to make it obvious. But,when will you tell me the reason why?~~

2009-09-06T13:11:00.003+08:00

People,i say sucide is the best solution. But i'm not stupid to do it kay. And sorry. Bear with me for the moment. I'm having moodswings + effing problems.

2009-09-06T00:23:00.001+08:00

Life sucks. I suck. You suck. Everything sucks. I want to clarify stuff. Here & now. I will name those by numbers. And theycan mean more than one person,or even the same person. I will just write what's on my mind.

1,
I don't know you mind set. You show e your effing attitude every single day. Bitch,get a life. You hurt people verbally. And with your actions. I thought i could trust yo after that incident. You prove me wrong. You told me you will change, i trust you once again. You prove me wrong,again. Wow. Wonderful uhks? You saw something you should not. You know something that you were not suppose to know. I said you can't tell others.You swear,you promised. And yet,once again,you prove me wrong. Can't you just say that you hate me in my face instead of doing all this to me?!

2,
I admit,i'm jealous. So what? You like being this way? No right?

3,
It has been years. You and her/him changed me. Because of friggin betraying and backstabbing. What sort of friend/s are you/you guys? I am hurt. I have changed. And most of the "credit" must go to you/and her/him. "Thanks".

4,
I thought you hate me? Why are you acting as if you don't? You know i already know the truth,ain't you? Stop acting. And say it in my face. And stop fucking trying to backstab me. It's no use anyway. I'm used to it.

5,
I don't know what to say about you,what do you treat me as? A bitch? Your friend? Or what? I don't know. But can you stop it? Critisize people at the right time can?

(Disclaimer)
I suck to the core. You hate me. I hate myself. Life sucks. And suicide is the best way to solve all this. My emotional rubber band has snapped. So i've changed. I'm not the old carissa. Get it right. I'm now someonewho hates myself,who people hates,who sucks and who have a massive emotional breakdown. Bye.

2009-09-04T23:00:00.002+08:00

I don't want to post this HERE in the 1st place. All of you force me to.
First things first. Can all of you stop fucking tell me to guess things myself? Keeping me in doubt. Nobody likes this feeling right? Tell me or just shut your mouth up. Ion't care anymore. 2nd,yes. I have changed. So what? Who taught me all of this shit in the 1st place? ALL OF YOU. And now,my whole person changed? Yes,get this in your brain. I changed because of your attitude towards me. You think i can stand all this gossip,backstabbing betraying crap? Put yourself in my shoes. 3rd,problems have been popping out again. So can you people fucking stop creating trouble for me? You think i like to have all this problems happeing on me right? You know how terrible i felt? Stop blaming me for things. And get this fact in your brain:

I CHANGE BECAUSE OF YOU PEOPLE. ASSHOLES.

You think i'm some can of bitch who can bear with all this shit? Now,i've landed myself into deep shit. Happy,people? For the past few years. Everyone of you. You think i'm the hyper Carissa who can bear with all this crap? You know how much pain i felt? Do you know how confuse i am? I've changed. So what? This is the outcome of what all of you did. Continue putting me into deep shit. Seriously,continue. You'll regret one day.

Pictures of you;

2009-09-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

These photos shall do the talking. What i have been doing from friday to wednesday. Long post with pictures. Cut out the crapping. And i update since Kartina wants me to update. Bye people.

Yadayada.

2009-09-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

I will post tomorrow. About the past few days? I need to upload 200+ pictures now. -.-" Goodnight guys. Bye.

You're priceless. :D

2009-09-01T22:17:00.001+08:00

Had a very fun teacher's day yesterday. :D Fun,i say. I didn't get to see Mdm Chia and Mdm Zheng due to our late school dismissal. Damn it. -.-" But i place their gifts on their table luhs. xD Good thing. Long time never see Wanling lerh. And she promise me to tag with her BIG BIG NAME. But so far,still haven't see any TAGS from her. She become super chio lerh. Can anot? xD Most of the teacher's and friend's reaction when seeing me were the same. -.- Shocked ? Surprise? Idk.
Oh yeah. About the teacher's day impersonation. I didn't wear any fake boobs larh. In the end. And Mdm Chen say i act like really like her. And say i have a gifted talent for acting. And laugh somemore. LOLS! Style larh. I act like i'm very sorry like that. Apologise to her. Haha.
Kay,bye people. Short update. (About yesterday.)

2009-08-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

Okay,i'm posting for the sake of posting, LOL. I know i'm a lame retard. Wait,i still can walk properly. Okay,stop it larh,Carissa. Fine,i'm crapping. I'm doing Mdm Chia's scrapbook now. And Mdm Zheng's and Mdm Zhu's card. :D I'm not giving any other teachers stuff other than 3 of them. The other teachers including secondary school teachers. I'm broke you see. At most,i will only make a card. With no pictures. Only words.
And i just realise i act without planning. & thinking. I was buffing my nails yesterday. And i forget it will make my nails shorter. So now,two of my fingernails are super short. Until they can just... pfft. Nevermind. Ignore me. I'm just someone retarded.

The completely changed whiteness;

2009-08-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

Had a wonderful day. Although,today's science lesson has gone haywire. Cause we are learning sexual reproduction ah,then the whole class was super high. And A was totally stoned. -.-" Anyways,music was alittle fun. Presented our jingle. I observed Mdm Chen during MT today. So didn't do compo. :X But it will be worth it bah. Bwahaha! The drama queen acting as Mdm Chen! *thick skinned*
After school,had lunch and spent some time with A. Went for NCDCC and learnt first aid theory. Was alittle funny and boring as well. :X And ate dinner with Kartina,Ridha & Jeremy. A long day uhks. Long day in short summary. Bye! :)
Thanks for the present. I'm sorry i can only give you the moonwalker disc. D: Had a wonderful day today. Thanks to you. Happy 1st month. :D ILY.